How Wide is Your Love?

Thank you so much, Lord. Help me keep a spirit and outlook of praise while my dad plays the news 24/7. Father God, I choose to bless my dad and encourage his heart. Help me God, I’m trying to maintain a heart of thankfulness and praise amid the pain.

I hear Your heart Hannah, I will help you. I love you so much. Shine My Peace that passes earthly understanding. Your soul needs Me, come into My Rest, Into my Peace. Take upon yourself my yoke which is light, and not burdensome.

How will they know My Children?

God quietly whispers this question to the Hearts of those who will listen and obey.

My heart is breaking as I remember how it used to be: I walked among the crowds of worshipers, leading a great procession to the House of Jesus, singing and giving thanks amid the sound of a great celebration! Psalms 42:4

I Will Use My Voice

My bodies autonomy isn’t your commodity.

Get your hands off my kids, data gained mind biz.

‘Yuck-in’ shoehorned your way in,

My ‘Vote’ didn’t count, your ‘promises’ you flout.

Disregarding the discord your ‘Marshall Plan’ will cause.

VCHEW’ing out the righteous, all to Carlyle’s gaping maw.

Fool’s gold you’ve sold for souls,

Gutters blood of innocence untold.

Fuhrer’s emblem around your neck,

or is that fury’s ‘placebo effect?’

‘Devils that are’ don’t speak for me!

You and your kind, the ‘powers that be.’

Lioness of Judea within me ROARS,

Tiptoe tulips, your own traps fall sore.

Like it or not, My Redeemer LIVES

Unto Him Alone, my praise I give!

Every knee WILL bow and tongue confess,

From Atheist to Muslim with all the rest.

Governors and Rulers will crawl to God’s Throne.

Each tribute offered unto Him Alone.

Answer His Call

With many other words he (Peter) warned them; and he pleaded with them, “Save yourselves from this corrupt generation.”  Those who accepted his (The Good News of Yeshua) message were baptized, and about three thousand were added to their number that day. Acts 2:40-41

What is needed? The Love of Jesus, the Love that passes all understanding. There is a counterfeit a fake ‘love’ (lust for things to fill the God shaped void) that the world offers but in the end it leads to death and the things of this world are passing away and not eternal.

This message isn’t new to you dear readers and sadly God is shouting at us ‘Repent dear children and turn back to me.’

How many more will be slain before the light-bulb goes off?

This I say to myself as well for as it’s written:

Don’t you know that unrighteous people will have no share in the Kingdom of God? Don’t delude yourselvespeople who engage in sex before marriage, who worship idols, who engage in sex after marriage with someone other than their spouse, who engage in active or passive homosexuality, 10 who steal, who are greedy, who get drunk, who assail people with contemptuous language, who rob — none of them will share in the Kingdom of God.

1 Corinthians 9:9-10 

The truth is without grace none of us no not one can come to the Father except for the blood of Yeshua (Jesus.) But that grace isn’t a licence to do what we please but with reverent fear of God (because as you choose to grow closer to God through spending time with Him you don’t want to do anything that will come between yourself and God.)

You begin to keep a short account meaning repentant each day as you become more sensitive to God’s Love and the Holy Spirit.

Dear readers, you know this you are aware of this I charge you to come to your senses and repent turn the other way and cling to Jesus like a magnet to a refrigerator!

Shine the light of Jesus without fear! Be bold in the Lord and comfort those who morn, be a light to a dark and twisted world that is blind leading blind.

God brought me to the light and I am three years self mutilation free only though coming to the end of myself, working through issues with God in a safe place I could do so and still am respective to the direction of the Lord.

Anyone can come and be healed, stay healed and partake in the river that is within those who are Children of God.

Come away my love He calls, come away from the mess of this world and seek Me without stopping and you will indeed find Me.

Will you answer Him as He knocks as the door of your heart? Eternity hangs in the balance. Invite Him in, and begin the greatest love adventure of your life!

God is a Healer

He heals the brokenhearted
And binds up their wounds [healing their pain and comforting their sorrow]. Psalm 147:3

I can attest to this truth. When I became honest with God, when I stopped playing games with myself and honestly cried out to God, He came and worked with me. It’s only by God that I am alive today.

If only the Love He has could be conveyed it has been for Jesus said, ‘It is finished.’ and truly all has been and will be accomplished through Jesus.

God is the God who was, who is and who is to come. God is the ALL in ALL. He IS that He IS. Past present and future tense.

Voilently throw your burdens on God, and He WILL sustain you, He will not allow the rightious to be moved. Psalm 55:22

As you laydown and sleep when you awake it’s because the LORD sustained you. Psalm 3:5

If the Son makes you free then you are free indeed. John 8:36

Indeed I am free and choose to walk out the freedom by obeying the Word of God, developing a relenship with Him and walking out what He teaches.

Choose the freedom of God.

50 Words of Assurance

Softly in her humming, God tapped her shoulder.
A dreamy and furiously celestial ‘Hi.’
Speechless with delight, a simple nod of affability and reception of a lover.
His presence all around, the heavenly abode.
She recognized and knows who she is in Him.
In Him she is sheltered and assured.

He is God


The job that I’d applied for fell through. Months of interviews and hoops jumped through sense November of 2015 to this past month.

Disappointment is bitter, in the case of those that have their hearts set on God it’s bittersweet. 

I sobbed my eyes out-but I didn’t stay there.

I gave the disappointment to God, He knows what He is doing, His Ways are not my ways, His Thoughts are Higher then mine.

I’m finding that isn’t not setbacks that paint the days that we have, but our reactions to set backs.

I was angry, bitter sobs chocking my pillow and crying out to God.

No words were needed.

Why would He lead me that far to allow it to slip away?

So-I gave it to Daddy God.

It’s OK to cry to sob.

But I’m not called to say there, in grief.

My computer stopped working at the same time this was happening.

So I posted from my brother’s ipad some thoughts and reflections regarding what to do from that point forward.

There are worse things that happen, and thank God that He has matured me to the point of handing all things over to Him.

It is well with my soul.

He is God-He is faithful like no other. He is God-I refuse to serve another. He is God-I declare in awe and wonder. He is God.  -Roy Fields Lyrics

Choose God, Choose Life

As the days go by we choose how we spend out life breathed time. every human on the face of planet earth…

Each person shows the handwork of God almighty, the heavens declare His Glory…Both those that believe and follow Him and those that choose not to…

The God like ability to be self aware, to reason, to choose…Is a gift every single one of them…

God is simple and yet profound awesome and loving, Holy Awesome and full of a Holy Jealously…There is no high like the Most High 😀

I’m telling you God is so Good! Ask and receive the entirety of who Jesus is who the Holy Spirit is…Out of our belly’s come rivers of living water, that water that Jesus spoke of that was from Him where we wouldn’t thirst nor hunger…

God fixed my car! It needed to be fixed, my father’s inspection wasn’t a big bill!

Praise God!!


If I could pour out the Spirit through this post, through these typed words…Can I just say that God has given me Garments of Praise in exchange for a spirit of heaviness, and Oil of Joy in exchange for a spirit of grief, beauty for ashes!

He moved the mountain of cutting my body to hell!

He saved me!

He is faithful, He is Truth in the flesh!

He is alive and well!

Grab hold of Jesus, He will not let go, even when you yourself want to give up! 

Get Up and Fight!

Those that are of God, stand. We are of the nation of Israel, we are of the root of Jessie grafted into Yeshua’s olive tree. The light of the world lives within us!

I say this to my own soul as to bloggers also, take hold of life! In Jesus there is victory, abundance but not as this world offers.

When the enemy tempts with old thoughts of ‘well you could cut yourself’ or ‘it won’t hurt to hide xyz’ then turn around and accuse…News flash it’s why he is called the accuser of the Children of God…

The darkness knows the way, truth and life and authority that dwells dormant within many who are baby Christians…

the ‘falling away’ is taking place, and with sorrow I see those that are in my generation that are hopeless, depressed, entitled, bound up in sin of self or sins of bitterness, rage, anger and unforgiveness…

I shine the light within me as best I know how, hoping it reaches some that read what is written here…

The biggest person I had to forgive was myself…and get ‘myself’ out of the way to live for God…

‘I’ do indeed die daily, for didn’t Jesus say ‘let those who follow me take up their execution stake daily.’ ?

Did he also say ‘count the cost, and consider before you set out to build your house least you not finish it and become a mockery?’

did Jesus not say ‘Build your home upon the rock, the rains came and the waters came up but the home remained secure.’

Paul mentions in 2nd Timothy Chapter 2:1-7 AMP

So you, my son, be strong [constantly strengthened] and empowered in the grace that is [to be found only] in Christ Jesus. The things [the doctrine, the precepts, the admonitions, the sum of my ministry] which you have heard me teach [a]in the presence of many witnesses, entrust [as a treasure] to reliable and faithful men who will also be capable and qualified to teach others. Take with me your share of hardship [passing through the difficulties which you are called to endure], like a good soldier of Christ Jesus. No soldier in active service gets entangled in the [ordinary business] affairs of civilian life; [he avoids them] so that he may please the one who enlisted him to serve. And if anyone competes as an athlete [in competitive games], he is not crowned [with the wreath of victory] unless he competes according to the rules. The hard-working farmer [who labors to produce crops] ought to be the first to receive his share of the crops. Think over the things I am saying [grasp their application], for the Lord will grant you insight and understanding in everything.

In God you don’t have to know what you’re doing. You just have to know Him who does.

The Letter Sameka (Hebrew)

The 119th Psalm is the longest one. Take note of the letters at the top of the paragraphs and you’ll discover a richness beyond compare.

I’ve decided to break these down for you guys because it adds to the depth and richness of God’s Word. 🙂

Today I read the section with the Letter Sameka as follows:

ס samek


I hate those who are double-minded,
But I love and treasure Your law.
You are my hiding place and my shield;
I wait for Your word.
Leave me, you evildoers,
That I may keep the commandments of my God [honoring and obeying them].
Uphold me according to Your word [of promise], so that I may live;
And do not let me be ashamed of my hope [in Your great goodness].
Uphold me that I may be safe,
That I may have regard for Your statutes continually.
You have turned Your back on all those who wander from Your statutes,
For their deceitfulness is useless.
You have removed all the wicked of the earth like dross [for they have no value];
Therefore I love Your testimonies.
My flesh trembles in [reverent] fear of You,
And I am afraid and in awe of Your judgments.

The meaning of the letter ס samek is: ‘to uphold’ ‘to lean upon’ ‘to support.’ The letter itself is in the shape of a shield.

The meaning here is obvious.

God is our strength and shield, the refuge for those that place their trust in Him alone.  

In awe of God, in respect of Him, I stand amazed.

We as humans are complex, so is God.

And yet in approaching Him ‘with clean hands and a pure heart.’ Many times (for myself) it’s just being honest with the Lord and saying ‘Lord I’m a mess, here it is, take it.’

Ever note the heart of God? Of what God calls valuable?

The heart, the intent, the root. From Genesis to Revelation God is full of mercy, and grace. Extending it now to all mankind, there is no excuse. 

Everyone now has a choice, in this grace era so taken for granted.

I am a thinker, an artist of sorts.

I identify with Paul so much, aside from the whole jailing people who were Christians and killing them. I identify with the zealousness of Saul.

For my own version of ‘Saul’ was in my own strength attempting to ‘figure out God’ to make atonement for sin through my own blood (I didn’t know this until God showed me and I repented.)

My passion, my purpose, my ‘autistic nature’ to believe people and give them the benefit of the doubt when out of line with how Yeshua (Jesus) has made me to be.

Filling up my gas tank with oil or sludge, I burn out and break down.

What I feed my soul via music, reading, movies on the web etc. will surface in how I treat myself and how I treat others.

I’ll admit I fill up on smut on the web sometimes, I struggle with lust. I struggle with overeating, overexercising.

Being held accountable with a trustworthy person at church as well as counseling and of course God is how I keep myself out of trouble.

However, with my zeal for the Lord when I am in line. When I sing worship music, listen to uplifting messages, look up to my Redeemer. It is then that I fill my gas tank with gas.

Or as the illustration of the virgins with the oil lamps some had oil and some did not. That is representative of ‘gas’ or ‘time spent with God’ doing it even when you don’t want to.

This is when I am ‘lit up’ for God and it’s so obvious to myself and others!

I’m a bit of an all or nothing, my bent.

When I’m depressed buddy I am. (as event in some of my posts.) :/

But when the Lord’s joy shines out of me, despite things ‘going wrong’ is when I overcome through God.

Stop Holding On and Just Be Held


Much thinking about the ‘fear’ of ‘big xyz’ falling where it may and letting the dust settle…Then I remember that I have a hope that isn’t meant to be kept silent or to myself, but shared person to person…

I have done my part and then some as a citizen of the united states IE. writing letters, calling people, being encouraging when I wrote and when I called but also presenting issues and what I believe to be the solution to them and wishing blessing from God onto those I wrote or called…

I still continue to do my part, but often am called ‘higher’ as a citizen of Heaven first and foremost…

Lately I’ve been in a funk, more lethargic then usual and the fight to even get out of bed has been difficult in the last two weeks, and I realize that when the basic things become a fight, that in my own strength I cannot take another step…

But allowing myself to be held by God and let go of the things that I am trying to keep together, but allow them to fall into place in God’s arms…

Isn’t it funny when you make the effort to truly change for the better that the uphill climb and the ‘get up and fight’ some days is just not there…

That lets me know that something is correct and to lean on the Lord even more…

This is a bit of an unguided ramble post and honestly I’ve been out of energy in the last few days…

refreshing comes from God and Him alone, and many days it’s minute by minute…

Let the pieces fall where they may and fall into the bed of grace God has prepared for you,

make time for God and fight for that time because once you get alone with God and even give an effort that is not that much when you don’t have the fight in you, He will lift you up to be refreshed (take as long as you need.)

Prayers for energy to get into God’s presence daily would be greatly appreciated… 

Thank you bloggers 🙂

From the bottom of my being I hope that each one of you find, discover and uncover the God of Israel, come to the knowledge and the Truth of Him who so loves you He gave of His life to totally change radically alter history and radically alter your own future into something that becomes beauty from the ashes you have now…