The gals at Mercy, I remember and I miss them so much it aches…It’s funny because when I first came home in 2013 I was full steam ahead to ‘get a job’ turned out that those doors were shut for a reason…I was to wait on God for about two years and some change…

Now, in faith I step out to find some sort of place that will hire me, any place…I’ve applied in person and on the WWW endlessly for the past month…

I get no email or call backs for all the effort put out, but I keep on keepin on…

I suspect it has something to do with the high functioning autism, no one hiring though I even have gone to Mcdonald’s and haven’t gotten even a call back from fast food restaurants…

I think I might work at Mercy perhaps…Actually my heart is, to go on missions again to China…I want to make a difference in the world I’m living in and in the Kingdom of God…Revisiting the memories, the healing and the bright hope of 2013 has lit a fire in my bones to ‘go therefore’ to do what God is about…

I’m just not sure if it’s here in the USA or permanently somewhere else, reaching people with the Love of God that rescued me from myself…Three years of no cutting brings me to tears when I remember how bad, how dark it used to be…

May I take this day, and everyday the Lord blesses, and live as though it were my last…