With all my heart, soul, mind and being…The closer I get to God the more in love with Him I fall, the more I drown in His loveliness…He is so good! beyond description, over and above what I can type…

I love Him x’s infinity and He smiles back in my minds eye and says (but I love you more darling one) as he nips my nose as a lover would with his eternal fingers…

He has been the one to hear all of my mess, and believe me there was mess…

I found an old journal and man, it was a mess and a half…I don’t delve into the past too much but just know that it was killing me from the inside out…

God waited by and was saying things but I was deaf to His Love for me for so long…

12 years of hell on earth in not only my life but the lives of those I love the most…

I don’t mention past things any longer, because that part of me is dead and buried in the water!

Now as Paul said ‘forgetting those things past, I press onward to the higher calling’ I cast off all the things that hinder me, for everyone it’s different…

But, I press on, and press into God because I’m a glutton for his presence…even if I lose it all, it’s gain because I have Jesus…